Cecilu etc

In my life, there are bigger people, better people who persevere through with me.

They make me smile.

by Caleb & Solomon Rexius

Who would have thought my life would change from fall to fall
Who would have thought I have found a friend or 2 after all

Through the darkness, through the sunny days
Through the wind and snow and sun rain
From the middle of nothing to the center of everything
Here we stand, once again

I wish I could bring you along on this journey
But I got a place in my heart for y’all, and Lord, give me strength
I wish I could be there when you cry and you need somebody
But with the Lord our bond is strong and strong enough to keep us moving on

And though its hard to say goodbye we hear the call
Through turns and forks in the road there is a path that brough us all…
Together and we stand and we serve and we learn and we earn the right to be heard
Because we know as we go on in life we are changed, not the same, new creation, Amen

I lay my future at the cross along with all my intentions
All my pride all my plans all my selfish ambitions
You met me at the crossroads discerning for the way
And showed its not about tomorrow or the past just today
Is the one I have been given one day closer to see him
A vapor and a mist, dawn to dawn, carpe diem
I pray I never will forget the solid ground I stand upon
A body of believers growing tight but moving on

♥

Cradling stones hold fire bright
As crickets call out to the moonlight

This night under stars, well, I call it peace
If you say, I’ll never need more than this

The trees grow so thick
You can barely see through
But the forest bestows the simplest of truths
You think you’ll be happy if granted one more wish
But the truth is you’ll never need more than this

Don’t live in forgotten times
May this always remind you
Of the sea under the skies blue looking glass
Let’s make this our story, let’s live in the glory
Time, it fades away,
Precious as a song
Cause someday we’ll be gone

Cradling stones hold fire bright
As we watch the glow of the morning light

- “More Than This” by Vanessa Carlton

I will never need more than this.

I want to dance in the rain right now..

+CNL

The grass is always greener on the other side….

Sometimes i see people living the life i dream of, their reality is my dream.
But i wonder if my reality is someone else’s dream.

The art of gratitude lies in standing there in my yard, looking at it admiringly and thanking God for it, romanticizing the greenery, just be captivated by the beautiful old yard of mine. Putting it under the fair light, and realizing that what i have is everything i need. I’ll never need anything more than my own yard at the time.

Looking at people admiring and romanticizing their own yard is heartwarming. Those people who live my dream and grateful enough to fall in love with their own yard.

Gratitude, i wonder if that’s what thanksgiving is all about.
I’ll start my own.

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1. She’s original. She is her own person, you can’t measure her with the measure for every other girl in the world, that’s just impossible.
2. She is insightful. On people, on situations.
3. She does her homework in dealing with people, checking background and use all means to gain insight on the person.
4. She is influential in so many good ways.
5. She appreciate beauties.
6. She is so smart and wise, she’s able to comprehend the big picture in the midst of raging storm.
7. She oozes compassion from her pores.
8. She sincerely and genuinely cares about so many people at once, it’s just crazy how she can spread herself just nicely.
9. She’s always the brighter part of my day.
10. She gains such great insights from the most simple things we usually missed out.
11. She feels people and able to give the vibration of acceptance.
12. She loves her God, and God visibly loves her and pushes her to grow.
13. She is ridiculously creative. She creates things in her mind, and then ‘poof’, nothing becomes something. The very thing that grown-ups cease to have.
14. She’s one of the most encouraging person i know.
15. She’s very brave, she’s not afraid to feel and go to the vulnerable places and to entangle herself with things uncertain for the greater good.

To you: You know i love you and wish you all the good things in the world. You’re a gem! *wink*

I’m grieving and mourning over something i once knew. Not in a bitter way, it’s just acknowledging that things will never be like it used to be and stop expecting it to be like certain ways.

Now after the grief, come the liberation and the realization that everything’s gonna be alright. I’m moving on. God is my safety net and everything is secure.

I remembered saying to myself ‘If this passed and i still stand, it’s a prayer answered. It’s by grace’ I know i can’t handle it on my own. I remembered being desperate and frustrated, so much that it almost kill my sanity. There is no way on earth i can handle it.

This is the blessing that he granted me the peace that transcends all understanding.

This is the grace they talk about. The undeserving blanket of comfort thrown all over me.

I love you, Lord.

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Understanding without assuming. That’s a tricky one, at least for me because i haven’t train myself long enough to do it effortlessly.

There are two sides of glass and i think i’ve seen both, which confuse me when the images produced can’t match, as in why through a concave-convex lens i see the same picture in a totally different ways when i see it from different sides of the lens. One object, one lens, two different images, yet both are right.

The truth is in between? No, both are legitimate truth. They don’t contradict each other although it might seem like it. There’s an explanation to it, but it’s complicated and requires years of research.

I know the explanation for physics problem is readily available. But unfortunately for life it is not. Even if someone in this world has the explanation, there is no way i would know and get it out from them unless there’s a divine intervention.

It’s very easy to move me emotionally, so it’s very easy for me to pick side. When i feel like it, i’d like to look at it from the concave-convex side, other times i would like look from the convex-concave side. Those ‘feeling first, truth comes later’ moments.

But all in all, i have my place here in the middle, knowing both have their truth.

I’ve tasted the hot mountain spring and so i have tasted the cold glazier river and i love both. I feel like i’m in the middle, until i realize my nature i hope i’m not lukewarm.

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